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Sery
04 June 2012 @ 10:14 pm
semi friends
Hi, and welcome to my journal. I'm Sery, 26 years old and from Germany.
I recently remodeled my whole journal due to lots of changings in my life. Now the fangirling part won't be the main thing here, so if you're expecting to read flailings about Arashi, sorry, but there won't be that much comming. I decided to turn this journal into a more personal one with lots of personal posts, stories about my life and so on. Also vacations, as soon as there will be some.

I live together with my boyfriend and a bunch of roommates right in the city of Duesseldorf and I love how full of people and life it is here. When I don't spend my time being lazy on my couch, watching TV series and playing video games, I love to go to the cinema and to eat japanese food in one of those awesome restaurants here. I'm also currently working on getting my life back on track after dealing some years with anxiety and depression. I'm doing good so far :)

I'm always happy to meet new people, to get to know the life of others and to hear stories about just everything, so just say some sort of 'Hi' here and go ahead and add me.
I don't add empty journals though, sorry.

And if you're here for the fics: FANFIC INDEX
 
 
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13 July 2015 @ 10:04 am
 
 
Sery
11 June 2015 @ 12:01 pm
Got a spontaneous vacation of two weeks starting on Monday.

And I absolutely need it. Somehow everything seems so exhausting and difficult these days.

So replies or mails may need some time. I will try to use this vacation to get as much rest as possible.

Not like there's much going on in this journal anyway :'D (I still have finished fic sitting on my desktop tho)
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Sery
This is in no way a coherent post (I actually didn't even try) so be warned.


God, I wanted to write about so much I don't know where to start. I really should post once a week or so, then my post maybe don't feel like such a Word Vomit. Funny me to use such a phrase, right?

So right now there are two fics impacting my life on a very heavy level and I need to tell you about them because I.seriously.need.to.talk.about.them okay? Please.

fic stuff ahead. Enter at your own risk 8DCollapse )


Enough about fic. You know, I moved. I told most of you already but I don't think I've actually mentioned it here in my journal, but I moved back to Düsseldorf. I moved from something that felt like a really really small town (like countryside-small... which it wasn't tho) right into The Big City. God, it feels so good living in an actual city again, having all the needed things and shops in walking distance, having a tram, being able to get somewhere on my own and not having to ask my mom all the time to give me a ride or to walk like 30 minutes to the next store. Cities are awesome.

And while moving and being away from home (and from a place where I felt safe and secure) comes with a lot of hardships, some which I expected and some I didn't, I know it was a good decision. I won't say it was the right one, because I don't like to only think in black and white, in right and wrong. Also, I will never know if it was the right decision, because now, after I made my decision, I'm not able to experience the other side of it, the 'wrong' side and maybe that side would have been even 'righter', who knows. But it feels like a good decision and that's what counts in the end.
I'm still struggling, even more than before, because with that illness I have, changings come with a huge price. The time to get used to a new enviroment is hard, because I have to create my own securtity and if there's one thing I'm really really bad with it is feeling safe with just myself.

That's why I decided to get some help on that matter. So I live with a bunch of awesome roommates now. Roommates who have similar problems like me. And it's really, really good. The way of understanding each other is awesome, the people are caring and treating me with a level of consideration I never experienced before. Like, one of the first talk we had were about triggers and what triggers me most and what they should pay attention to. I mean, you don't have those kind of talks in those typical flat sharing communites, right? But we all know that each of us has a bunch of problems, so we're considerate and we help each other out.

The room I've got is the biggest one here, but it still feels really small, because I just have too many things XD I tried to make use of the space and it's kinda comfy already even tho there's still so much missing (especially decoration on the walls. eg. posters. eg. Arashi.) but I kinda want to already share some pics, so here are just some snappets of my new room. (come to think of it, I never shared pics of my old one, oops. maybe one day. probably not.)
pics and watercolor!Neen fangirling oopsCollapse )


So, some new stuff:

I ORDERED THE DIGITALIAN TODAY AND I DON'T KNOW WHY BUT I JUST GOT SO EXCITED SUDDENLY AND NOW I CAN'T WAIT UNTIL JULY BECAUSE THAT CON WILL BE AWESOME AND BLU-RAY AND LIMITED AND I'M HAPPY

Yeah, I'm not that into Arashi these days because of lack of time and lack of chances to fangirl, but I kinda feel like rewatching cons and tv shows now, because-- because-- Arashi!
Also, I feel like celebrating my birthday (which is two days after the release) by watching The Digitalian with some people. Would that be something for you? It's just a spontaneous idea and with my current home and flat mates, I don't really have a place for that, but maybe someone has an idea? I just-- I'd really like to watch that con with some people ;_;

Oh, and I'm watching Aiba's Drama these days and first I thought I wouldn't manage to watch more than the first episode because I just can't with the characterization of Aiba's and his father's character, just watching gets me uneasy. But then I gave it another chance and watched the second one and since it got a bit better, I continued watching, still getting all edgy whenever Aiba got whiny and afraid and god, I don't know why they even write such a transparent character. Maybe I'm just not used to Japanese shows anymore, I don't know.
I'm currently at episode 6, so not up-to-date, but now I got my hopes destroyed and I consider (again) if I should continue watching. I head this interesting head canon in which Aiba's character was simply schizophrenic and Nameless-san himself. Imagining that, the story really got more exciting. But with the things happening at the end of episode 6, it's hard to still believe in that. Well, we'll see.
Someone else who's watching it? Wanna share your opinions with me? :)
 
 
Sery
08 November 2014 @ 10:28 am
And this time I seriously don't know what to do.

I thought I'd get through NaNovember without problems, because I'm used to that whole Feels-concept and I always managed to find a way to concentrate on my writing anyhow.

Then stupid Arashi with those stupid Hawaii documentaries happened which where LIKE STUPID FUCKING FANFICTION AND MY OHMIYA AND ARASHI FEELS ARE BURNING AND SHIT I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO 'CAUSE I DEFINITELY CAN'T FIGHT THEM

I just want to stop NaNo, stop writing my novel and write STUPID FLUFFY ARASHI FIC ALL DAY

Why is this happening?

ALSO MY SO CALLED FRIENDS ARE REALLY NOT HELPING AT ALL YES I MEAN YOU STOP WITH GIVING ME EVEN MORE HEADCANONS I CAN'T FUCKING DEAL WITH THEM I CAN'T


Yeah. So. I mean, I already wrote enough for NaNo to give me some days off, but I expect my Feels to grow even bigger when I give in to them and do the above mentioned things.

STUPID ARASHI WHY DO I LOVE THOSE STUPID STUPID BOYS SO HARD I REALLY DON'T UNDERSTAND


/stops with this unnecessary rant

/tries at least


Also I wanted an excuse to show off my lovely new icon which I am so in love with that I have no words for it besides ughhhhh
 
 
 
Sery
15 September 2014 @ 11:01 pm
OH MY GOD SO HERE IS THE THING I ONLY JUST FOUND OUT THAT KAJI YUKI IS VOICING LINK IN HYRULE WARRIORS AND I REALLY DON'T KNOW HOW TO DEAL WITH THAT INFORMATION OH GOOOOOOOOD OH MY GOD FUCK FUCK FUCK

I DON'T KNOW HOW TO SLEEP TONIGHT

I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH MY LIFE UNTIL FRIDAY

Seriously.

I fell so hard for Kaji Yuki in the past month, especially since Ao Haru Ride and when I fall in love with a voice actor, it tends to get really... passionate. Ugh. I always had that thing with voice actors. Always. And at the same time I kinda fell even more in love with Link, I just played Skyward Sword this morning, fangirling over how good he's looking. Then, a few moments ago, I was browsing the Hyrule Warriors Tumblr tag to give myself my daily dose of fucking beautiful Hyrule Warriors!Link with his androgynous face which is just way beyond beautiful and then I saw

THEN I SAW

THE VOICE ACTING THING

And now I feel like I just drank 10 cups of coffee, because I can't stop shaking.

AND IT REALLY DOESN'T HELP THAT THE MOCKINGJAY TRAILER JUST CAME OUT

It really doesn't.

I don't even know why I'm writing this.

BUT FUCK THIS SHIT I REALLY DON'T KNOW HOW TO BE ABLE TO PLAY THAT GAME IN FOUR (!!!) DAYS HOW WITH THIS FACE AND THAT VOICE AND HOW



ASDFGHJKLKJHGFDSDFGHJKJHGFDSASDFGHGFDWD CAN YOU PLEASE STOP THANK YOU
 
 
Sery
17 June 2014 @ 06:30 pm
Title: Of Thunderstorms and Nightmares
Pairing: Ichiro/Shiro (Ohno/Nino)
Rating: PG-13
Word Count: 4200
Warning: mentions of domestic violence, incest
Summary: His mother's love, his dad's strength, rainy days on the rooftop - all these things are parts of Ichiro's big puzzle of life. But sometimes there are pieces that don't quite fit, ones that change the outcome of the whole picture. Shiro is one of those.
Notes: I wrote this last year as a christmas present for the lovely walking_orgy. It's set in the My Girl Universe in which Arashi are brothers. The idea hit me when I re-watched the My Girl making of in which Ohno talks about his character and how he thinks he got the most love. And with all the rather happy My Girl Universe fics out there, I wanted to approach it from another, darker side. Well yeah, so this is not a happy story. But I still wanted to post something for Nino's birthday :') Many, many thanks to the wonderful rakun for beta-reading ♥
Now also on AO3.

Most of you already know, but just to be sure: Ichiro = Ohno, Jiro = Sho, Saburo = Aiba, Shiro = Nino, Goro = Jun.



When Ichiro thinks back to his childhood, he remembers the sound of rain pattering against his slant window.Collapse )
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Sery
06 March 2014 @ 08:19 pm
SO THERE ARE


ARROW FEELS

SLADE FEELS

OLIVER FEELS

TOMORROW PEOPLE FEELS

KAZAPON FEELS

OHMIYA FEELS

PUZZLESHIPPING FEELS



AND ALL OF THEM AT ONCE


I feel a bit overwhelmed.
 
 
Sery
02 January 2014 @ 06:38 pm
Title: The days fall apart in your hands (5/5)
Pairing: Nino/OC, Nino/Ohno
Rating: PG-13
Word Count: 4500
Warning: Canon-AU, Memory issues
Summary: After four months away working in America, Nino comes back to find everyone around him is acting strangely - and it's becoming increasingly worrying. When he tries to understand what really happened while he was gone, he must dig past all the lies. To put all the broken pieces together, he must realize that one thing he kept away so deep down, locked up, long forgotten.
Notes:Happy new year to everyone! And let me say thank you to all of you, because you gave me amazing feedback and I'm so happy that so many could relate to this fic. It's one of my most precious baby's, so you can believe how happy you make me with every comment ♥ Thank you! Now onto the last part. I really hope I managed to conclude everything in a way you can enjoy. Again, lots of love to aozora_pedaru and eufry, you two are really the best! <3



For a long time he continued looking past Ohno at the spot in which he had seen the perfect illusion of his deceased wife for the last time; then he turned his gaze on Ohno.Collapse )
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Sery
24 December 2013 @ 12:24 pm
Title: The days fall apart in your hands (4/5)
Pairing: Nino/OC, Nino/Ohno
Rating: PG-13
Word Count: 5400
Warning: Canon-AU, Memory issues
Summary: After four months away working in America, Nino comes back to find everyone around him is acting strangely - and it's becoming increasingly worrying. When he tries to understand what really happened while he was gone, he must dig past all the lies. To put all the broken pieces together, he must realize that one thing he kept away so deep down, locked up, long forgotten.
Notes: Merry Christmas and a happy Aiba-day to everyone! We're finally onto the second half of the story, my favourite one :) Again, this wouldn't have been the fic it is now without the big help from aozora_pedaru and eufry


Ohno had helped him to his feet and guided him into the living room. The curtains were drawn, the air stale, as if the room hadn"t been aired out in days. Nino sat on the sofa and asked himself where he was.Collapse )
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